I literally despise school, especially the horrific people in it. The holidays just seem to be going by so quickly and I haven’t even done that much. I wish the people at school could be less of the douchebags that they are. I hope none of them see this because a diary isn’t really secure. But to be honest, nor is putting it out on the Internet…
It’s fine, I guess. It’s not like I care.
In school, I’m the fat and psycho kid who’s weird and a complete emo. What a remarkable mixture…It’s just so easy for people to take advantage of me for their own amusement. They tug on my nerves like my cat runs for my drawstrings. I have tried to find many ways to cope…I’ve tried uploading (horrible) content on my YouTube channel, many people there are just an absolute joke, I still have some good people left there. I don’t feel it any more, the feeling that made me care about them albeit I still have anxiety.
When I’m at school, I’m just…bland. It’s hard to explain really, especially when writing it down. It’s hard enough to use the right words to show my feelings but here I am, doing exactly what I can’t do in front of others.
I shouldn’t complain really…I have 4 weeks left and I have loads of interests to delve my mind into. This is my awesome break away from it all. When I get back, everything is going to be stressful. The schoolwork is going to get too much, what people will say. God knows. They come up with more creative crap to say than to write down for an English writing exam. But it all just gets generic, real quick. They lose their originality just like how I lose my paitience but at the same time: care for it all.
Besides, these are people I’m only going to be with a few years. After that I’m away from it all, away from the stress and away from them. However, there is going to be difficulty in leaving the people I care about behind but I can still have social media connections with them. I might also start a Sims’ CC WordPress as well. What a day.
My Life As It Is 